For a moment in time I found myself not doing the basic things that I need to do in order to feel like myself. Grief, it is the most complicated of all emotions I have felt to date. It feels as though you are doing the extraordinary, going to great lengths, all the measures required of a marathon or an Olympian - but in reality, you just took a shower and washed your hair today. Good for you, seriously- the grief is something that churns inside you and shreds you from the guts out. It takes no prisoners, and gives no warning when it begins to burn and nip at the parts of your heart that you ke… Read more

IN FACT- I DON'T WANT TO SEE YOUR DICK AT ALL. Do not ask, do not show it to me without being asked- and let me assure you, I will never ask you. I am not personally aroused in any way by the idea or reality of a man being pushy or forcing me to see his penis. What pleasure do you think I would derive from that? Do you think that women just enjoy looking at your penis when you expose it - like some pervert in a park - without there being in indication that she is interested at all? If the answer is yes- and your first instinct is to virtually flash me with a picture- then kindly refrain and… Read more

I typically do not enjoy weddings, I recall thinking before driving out of the parking garage from the hotel, but this might change my mind. I held the bar behind the couch as the soon-to-be father of the groom licked my clit in strong rythmic motions, with both hands on my buttocks, head back, as I kneeled over his face. Each tongue of my slit was better than the last, and I could feel it building. My best friend was marrying this man's son- and I couldn't imagine my friend's husband could be better than this. I felt my first orgasm rising and I said in an agressive hushed tone- OMG fuck me… Read more

There was no reason for me to accompany John on the business trip to Palm Springs. I did not golf, I had no interest in it, and I wouldn't be required to take detailed notes. The trips I had gone on before were ones the entire company did for a retreat, to talk big strategies drink too much and hopefully be enticed into slave labour at their desks for another year. No, there would be none of that on this trip. As I sat in my apartment the night before the morning we were to depart, I stared at the box on my coffee table that had arrived by private courier less than 20 minutes prior. Daring me,… Read more

Stripping is relatively straight forward on the stage. You pay your fee be in the club, vie for time on the stage and navigate the pecking order, showcase your talents and then you go to the real work. Entertaining the "gentleman" and ensuring they have a good time. The thing about secret, underground, clubs are that the limits are what you make them. The "full service" package- the most expensive and prestigious" does not only include happy endings, but there is an elite VIP option. To become a member, requires significant investment financially, as well as rigorous medical examination and te… Read more

Welcome to Vegas daddy, I have been waiting for you. I smile up at you as you let yourself in the room- it's been a long day of business and travelling, but you are finally here- at your luxurious hotel room on the strip, complete with your sugar baby- who you keep for your frequent business trips. Clad in pink satin lingerie, a thong and bra with gardets and nude high heels, you smile back at me as you begin to unbutton your shirt. You love it when I call you daddy- although you are old enough to be, we are far from related. You often tell me how you want to fill my sweet practically virgin… Read more

The following is fantasy only... My husband and I met on a holiday in Hawaii when our respective groups found each other locked out of the adjoining villas one warm and glorious Hawaii night. He was there for a gold tournament through business with two other male associates from his company, and I was there on a bachelorette weekend that would go down in infamy. He was still practicing as a doctor in a successful clinic on his side of the country while I attended University on the other. I had bee enjoying my time and having a few drinks when we realized at the head of the driveway that we we… Read more

What is your favourite toy to watch a woman use on herself? Imagine this- there is a gentleman's club, much like a strip club, but more private. The women showcase themselves for the patrons who mingle and enjoy beverages etc. Upon selecting a woman whose aura turns you on- be it the private school outfit, the seemingly conservative exterior, or the lingerie you can already see she is wearing, you are taken to a private room where she puts on a private show for you, and perhaps some of your friends... In the room there is comfortable set up for participating in and witnessing pleasure. You g… Read more

In the fantasy, he is beast. Mature, graying, and knows how to please a woman. His son is in fact useless when it comes to continuing the family bloodline. His mother approached me long before the "wedding" to make her proposal. We need to continue the male bloodline, and it has to be sequential to our generation. My son is not interested in women, but you already knew that. The reality is that you will be a toy for my husband's pleasure. I am no longer interested in that endeavour but we must keep him satisfied and since the moment he laid eyes on you he wanted to make you his. At first I… Read more

Imagine you caught me pleasuring myself... what would you do? Imagine, you- my best college girl friend's father- are in town. Us girls live in an apartment, in a good end of town, that you generously invested in for your daughter's education. The two of you are estranged, for the most part, and so she was not expecting you to drop in between meetings on your business trip. Certainly, neither was I. The sun on the private patio is lovely and as it warms my skin I feel my nipples harden and the rush of warmth, tingling sensation, rush to my most sensitive parts. We have met in passing, once or… Read more

Stress- while for some men I understand that sex can be a thing that distracts and calms the mind- for this girl, when I am stressed it is the last thing on my mind. I lose all libido so fast it is not even funny. I wish I could zone out with a nice bottle of wine and some good toys or something even better, but that is just not in the cards for me when shit hits the fan. I will keep it brief, but I witnessed the death of someone very dear to me recently, and the grief has shaken me to my core. It has hit harder than any human force I could imagine, and I thought momentarily that I would never… Read more

I met him in the office for the first time when I was 16, but it was not until the summer I turned 21 that we had the pleasure of becoming more closely and intimately acquainted. The tennis club and brunch there on Sunday was a family tradition started long before I was even in the picture. At 21 years of age, and little hungover from a bon-fire beach party with friends the night before, the last place I had in mind for 10am was the dining room at the Club. In fact I would much rather have still been in bed, blocking the light with my hands as it seeped through blinds. I hate those blinds -… Read more

If I am honest- the older man roleplay is still tingling my clit and G Spot. SADLY, during a spring time thunder and lightening show, there was a surge and my WeVibe has bought the farm. I am thinking of starting a contest of sorts- for interested parties- and am just putting some feelers out there. I am very interested in exploring more remote toys- controlled over the web- so that we can connect and write some short erotica together. In exchange for a new sex toy, of you choosing, what would you propose the grand prize should be? An erotica short story you help me write, input, ideas, new e… Read more

Well- for some of you who read this ( I doubt that many) I have eluded previously to a partner that suffers from drug addiction. Unfortunately, he is also a porn addict and it has hurt our relationship very badly. I have been extremely trepedatious about things moving forward and now I am totally sure that things are done. He has made the choice once again to hole up in an rental property with drugs and porn and while this might sound like a good time for many, it is the last straw for someone who was already almost out the door. Anyways, the research portion of my blog has ended and the moti… Read more

Face sitting is not something that I have ever been comfortable doing. I can never relax enough to let go and actually enjoy the feeling of a tongue in between my slit, devouring my as though my pussy contains the last bit of the sweetest nectar on this earth. I want my thights to quiver, as I am pressed into his mouth by his hands on my ass. The feeling of his tongue moving in and out of me, and up and down my pleasureful opening is too much to bare and I am going to cum! But then I wake up... the disappointment of failing to orgasm from a nearly wet dream is awful! The older gentleman fant… Read more

Hi There, Perhaps you will read the following and come up with some ridiculous argument about your civil liberties or you will agree that this is not something that should even need to be explained. If the former applies to you, then please feel free to stop reading. If you are privledged enough to hold the view that everyone is "entitled" to think and do whatever they want to in a "free country" then you can take your white, middle-class, very-likely-male, able-bodied, and ignorant self to a different profile focused on your current special interest. It will be difficult for you to decide no… Read more

Harrold and my grandfather saw a lot of each other that summer, as I mentioned, the business was too busy for my grandfather to handle at his advancing age and it was Harrold- the son of his former business partner- who was up to the plate. The next time I saw Harrold, after I had made myself climax using just my hands thinking about his more mature, yet still fit body and experienced hands all over me, I felt more confident. It was as though somehow the ice had been broken, and he knew what I had done despite not having been there. I hadn't been bold enough to bring anything like a real sex… Read more

It was the summer between my first and second year of University, and I had just turned 19. Instead of returning to my parent’s home on the East Coast of Canada, I had decided to indulge my love of the ocean and the more temperate summer weather and visit my extended family in the Lower Mainland of Vancouver. It was going to be a perfect summer, technically I would be staying with my grandparents – who I adored- but they knew that I was at that important “coming of age” time, where I would want to be exploring the city with some of my friends from University who had returned to their family ho… Read more

Gentleman (and ladies who are interested in the topic), I have encountered a fetish that I had no idea existed until rather recently. The journey of my discovery is not important for the purpose of this entry, other than to let you know that I have lived many lives. In one of the lives, not the one I live now, I was addicted to illegal substances (and legal ones) that ultimately controlled my life. The addiction is a beast that will take your soul before it takes you body, and all the while it breaks the hearts of everyone around you. I am happy to discuss this and the topic of recovery at a l… Read more

Well- my apologies- I am afraid that mentally I have been in a bit of a funk and I am aware that my posts have not contained the same smutty details and setting of the scene that I have included previously. Tonight, however, things have turned back around in the right direction. Often for inspiration, I find myself in a couple of anonymous adult chat rooms where I can not only observe the trends and general vibe (no pun intended) of the room, but often I find inspiration from talking with men who strike up a conversation with me. I used to leaved my bio section completely incomplete- roll the… Read more